A Dead Refrain

Skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains move in my path

The streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth

My veins are anchored in this city - I am defeated by this lack of conviction



I am crushed - by 800 miles - eyes widened in self loathing

When the fucking dirt proves stronger

Than the most pure emotion that I've ever fucking had

So what is left in life - but my destruction?

Why do my lungs still gasp - when I no longer breathe for you?

Where is the truth in my existence - when I have been cut off from

Your tender fingertips - all that I've known falls down around me

Every twisting tree and dead end street reminding me of you

Taking me back

A year

My life crawls on without you - amongst the endless snowing sheets

Disheartening moments of salvation come to me only when I am asleep

I no longer stomach the denial - hiding the weakness of my being.

The day to day has been a slow blur since you left

Only (your) forgiveness sets me free

Free

The bridges - collapsing - hillsides are growing fast

The pavement - is shifting - quicksand controls my will

I question life and it's true meaning

I am defeated by this feebleness of will

Frenzied thoughts arrest my mind

As I descend towards my eminent destruction

The only thing I can rely on - when I lie even to myself

Skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains are closing in my path

The streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth

My veins are anchored in this city

I am defeated by this lack of conviction

Am I already dead? I proceed hollow - unloved

I am our burnt out memory - self muutilation is my mainstay

Tear me away - from the pictures of your face

Pry my eyes from your written word

Tear me away - from the bondage of regret

Convince me that I am alive

This is the end - the end of everything

All I held dear - has slipped from my grasp

This is the end - the end of everything

All whom I've loved - are fucking memories

This is the end - the end of everything

As I am ripe - for this demise

This is the end - this is the end of everything

I kneel - godless and beaten

I long for moments when my eyes aren't blinded by emptiness.