Paid In Full

I was nowhere near ready when all it ended

So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you



You gave me the chance, time and again, in vain

Now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full

Break the chain, but no longer can I take the pain



It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you



Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak

So I can only blame myself for this state we are in

I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late

Did you change? I did too. Love can grow from the last grain



It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you





I need you less and less

Every day fix this moral decay

Yet I have grown to love you even more



I fall back, and I turn another cheek.

You mouth the words you're not ready to speak

You're scared of me now; no I never had a clue

That I'd become so much stronger than you.



I will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late



If you like I will leave, I will not miss the last train again



It's hard for me to love myself right now,

I've waited, hated, blamed it all on you...



It's hard for me to love your face right now

I'm waiting, hating, needing being me





I need you less and less and

Every day leads us farther away

From that moment



It's hard for me to hate myself right now

Finally I'm understanding me

One day we may have whole new me's and you's

But first I need to learn to love me too....