Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry

My self-affliction fades

Stones to throw at my creator

Masochists to which I cater



You don't need to bother, I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on, I won't let go til it bleeds



Wish I was too dead to care

If indeed I cared at all

Never had a voice to protest

So you fed me **** to digest

I wish I had a reason, my flaws are open season

For this, I gave up trying

One good turn deserves my dying



You don't need to bother, I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on, I won't let go til it bleeds



Wish I'd died instead of lived

A zombie hides my face

Shell forgotten with its memories

Diaries left with cryptic entries



And you don't need to bother, I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on, I won't let go til it bleeds



You don't need to bother, I don't need to be

I'll keep on slipping farther

But once I hold on

I'll never live down my deceit