Disheartenment

Lying in a dark corner 

The black candle light is dying out 

Trying to refuse this suffering 

As coldness burns my pale naked flesh 



I faced my fears a thousand times 

Endless doubts - Life of paranoia 

I try to find a way out 

From this state of suicidal urge 



I watch with empty eyes the blade 

As tears begin to fall down my face 

Another night alone with myself 

At one with melancholy and depression 



I bleed because the dark is near 

I cry as I realize you can’t be here 

I need to caress your skin in the night 

But now my only friend remains this knife 



Why must I live with these fears? 

I know my only tragedy is my mind 

Sometimes I think I’m wasting all the joys 

And with this bitter thought I fear to die 



I feel so jaded now, so far away 

I can’t face next morning with this pain 

Another cut lacerates my flesh 

Sometimes I think it will be the last 



I’m only trying to objectivate this hate 

I prove towards myself and life itself 

I only need to watch these fifty wounds 

I opened upon my body in the night 



I only need to stop these sick death thoughts 

And cry for joy when you’ll be here again 

I’ll watch you sleeping naked at my side 

I’ll kiss you and this blood will stop to flow 



Everyone can kill himself one day 

Life brings pain and suffering on our way 

Cut your wrists, it’s simpler than it seems 

But in death you’ll know... 

Disheartenment wins