A Single Second

Oh my God! 

My God this can't be happening! 

God tell me, 

tell me this isn't real! 

I can't believe all that I have foreseen is finally happening.

I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel. 

I always knew. 

Enveloped now, 

encased by my worst fear. 

I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, 

I never wanted to cease to exist,just disappear. 

Fear memories are all that lie ahead. 

Never have I felt so lost. 

Memories dull my senses. 

Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. 

Never have I felt so dead. 

Once felt so warm, 

no I'm fucking freezing. 

I am the once embraced abandoned one. 

I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; 

no relief was mine, 

I was burnt, by the sun.