Hurt

I hurt myself today,
to see if i still feel.
I focus on the pain,
the only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole,
the old familiar sting,
try to kill it all away,
but i remember everything.
What have i become?
my sweetest friend.
Everyone i know,
goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.

I wear this crown of thorns,
I bound my liar's chair,
full of broken thoughts.
I can not repair,
beneath the stains of time.
The feelings disappear,
you are someone else.
I am still right here.
What have i become?
my sweetest friend.
Everyone i know,
goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
If i could start again,
a million miles away.
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.