With This Knife (Alternate Version)

I let myself fall into a lie

I let myself smile and feel alive

No matter how I try I don't know why

You push so far away

You wrapped your hands tight around my heart

And squeezed it full of pain 



[Chorus]

With this knife I'll cut out the part of me 

The part that cares for you

With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me

The heart that cares for you



I can't believe the way you took me down

I never saw the pain

Like poison in my veins



[Chorus]



The hate and the fear

The nightmares that wake me up

In the tears

The nightmares and (the hate)...